STANDING AT THE PEAK
Updated: Jun 16, 2020
I watched Terrance McMahon's TED Talk today and was moved by his personal story. It reminded me that many of us have had defining moments when we knew the old self had to die and a new self had to be recreated. Back in 1983 I was sitting in my apartment in Queens, NY where I lived at the time and I heard myself say "I'm afraid of life". I had a job at the UN that paid me well and I was thirty two, my career was ascending and I was living in in New York City, my dream destination. Somehow, I felt very much alone and unhappy at the core because I assumed that my life should have a bigger impact than merely making a good living and having fun. My pain points were many and at that point, I had not even been able to articulate what was eating me inside. All I knew was that my life was misaligned from where my soul wanted to be. That moment when I heard me declare that I was afraid of life, was an awakening for me. I had to ask myself what am I supposed to do if the challenge I faced was fear of life itself? I prayed and my prayer was not to get rich or famous, it was not to have a legacy or to build an empire. I wanted to live without fear and that became my first step toward recreating the person I wanted to be. There were many twists and turns, but all along I was determined to be the best that I could be. I not only live without fear but now share the method I developed for my transformation.